Letting Life Happen
as fall comes rolling in with its gray skies and fresh chill, i feel like (maybe) i'm slowing down and starting to accept this new season of life we are in. we kind of crashed head-first into the change and have still been catching up with ourselves ever since we got here. unpacking, looking for a job, adjusting to a new life, getting a new job, annikas birthday, school... its seems to have been non-stop and we've both felt unsettled - and a little crazy.
but lately it seems as if i can almost hear jesus whispering, "martha, martha...." in my ear and coaxing my spirit to just slow down. I went to arkadelphia this past weekend, the place that (to me) means peace, simplicity, contentment..., i have come home feeling refreshed. i've spent time with our "kids" from bible clubs, driven quietly on country roads, heard the stories from my girlfriends about what God is doing in their life and felt reminded that life isn't so much about 'being there' as it is about how faithfully we are 'getting there.'
my husband and i keep imagining this long road we are on and lamenting the time and effort it will take to get to the end. (as if we even know what the end will be.) we think about how impossible it seems in so many ways, and lots of other things that are completely out of our control.
but it makes sense that we would feel completely inadequate to do this because it is something God has brought us into. we kind of feel like this was His idea, not ours. we cant even pretend that we know what we are doing or how its going to work. but i feel encouraged these days because i'm starting to realize we aren't the only ones. everyone is just going forward, waiting on God, and letting life unfold as they find out what he is doing. we're going to miss out on so much if we dont just accept where we are right now and enjoy letting life happen.
so rather than imagining how things could be in a new city, in our own place, in a different life... i'm going to make another cup of tea, fold some laundry, and appreciate the rainy day out our window.